to find out how he got here......

Have you ever stood in the middle of a field, gazed at the sun peeking over the horizon, smelled the beautiful clean air , let the beauty surround you and ask yourself "How did I get here". I have done that many a time and still at the end of the euphoria I want to go further away. Please help me ye who have arrived............

to get some perspective...........

When I first started writing this blog, I thought I'd put together my day to day observations. Things I bump into in the morning, people I meet or even stuff going on in my life. This has changed clearly down to the thoughts I have and things I am having a problem dealing  with. Now that I have realized what I should be doing with this blog I can now get some perspective in life.
I'm starting to feel the withdrawal effects from not having my drug. I now have to get myself off it before it destroys my life but I really wish i could go on. I had not had it in a few weeks now and I'm sweating, my thoughts are incoherent and I can not make any sense of anything I hear. Its time for me to stop, I'm going to stop.


As soon as i figure out which drug to start using next.....

to stop using......

Cocaine, heroine, marijuana, sleeping pills, painkillers. When you ask someone whether they are taking drugs, you usually ask them whether they are 'using'. Its a more subtle and less of offensive way of describing a person's dependance on the drugs. I have never been a patron of the more harder and branded drugs on the market but they say every man needs at least one vice. I am however using a stronger, rarer and more expensive drug. I wake up in the morning and want to have it, when i have it I let the feeling stay with me for as long as i can. When its gone I start feeling sick and I scream out that I have got to have it. 

It has destroyed me, I have alienated some of my friends, I can't concentrate in class and I'm broke all the time. 

I really need to stop using...

to connect with a higher power………..

Psalms 23 The lord is my shepherd I shall not want………surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.

Truly deep words from King David’s Album, the psalms are music from one of the greatest musicians of all time. I have always been amazed by the bible with its many books , writers, explanations of great peoples and cities that rules the world thousands of years ago. It always brings a little more piece every time I read a new chapter because I always liken it as much as possible to myself and in the end I try and tailor the decisions made by those people into my own life. This has proven difficult in recent years because I’m not sure how David would have handled asking for a raise……….

to be forever young.

I'm sitting on my office desk listening to Jay-z's forever young ,a song sampled from the Alphaville song of the same ,and ask myself if my youth is really worth wasting away. We as the children of this country hurry and go through our school system pouring through great books, drowning in the library and cramming late into the night for a miserable future ahead. Misery comes in many ways but that is where we all end up. I went straight into university after high school and i haven't had a resting period since then. Don't get me wrong, I do not advocate for laziness but is this what I worked for........

to buy a boda boda

Today wasn't as much a nasty weather day as it was unpredictable. Woke up to cold, went to work in the cold and watched the rainfall on the grass while shivering on my desk. I wouldn't want to bore you about details of the weather, what I would like to do is give you a bit of the bitter taste of life that is today. i was driving by the area popularly known as Muthaiga when i noticed that from the mini market round about to the Muthaiga round about, there aren't any Matatus. This can't be blamed on the lack of matatus in this country but from my investigation i found out that they are not allowed on that stretch of road because the creme de la creme say so. Now isn't that sad..............................
For drivers who use that road on a regular basis, there are always hitch hikers there. What they need is a few more boda bodas to help them out.