See a clear day.......

The sky goes grey everyday and screams from inside my head just keep getting suppressed. It's not a matter of preference for a sunny day just the fact that sunny day for me means a clear and happy mind. For all ye who know the effects of the rain on ones mood surely you understand and see it my way. From ancient times it has always been a good omen to those of us who deem the world as our playground. clear skies have always been good for tracking prey, learning the secrets of the world and best of all warmth. A warm body is generally happier than a cold one, when people feel loved its always described as a warm feeling. When people are scared, it's usually a cold shiver.

All this ranting and raving but the short story is Kevin wants to see a clear day. A day when I don't have to worry about bills, punctured three, punctured wallets, problematic family members etc. how does one get to a clear day. It would be a simple answer if it wasn't so complicated. Everybody wants to be rich, they say a billionaire has no problems. The only reason that I could wish for that is because I know that a billionaire probably has 99 problems but money ain't one.
If money isn't he solution then I believe a clear day could be found by being loved. That could help clear the skies a bit but at the end of he day, you can't eat love and money comes into the picture. Wow, if you wished for love then you may end up realizing that love doesn't pay rent the hard way.

We could go on and on and on with this. Wish for brains and you end up insufferable and long for love, wish for wisdom and you will be tested for the rest of your life and lack peace. It's really not as easy as you think to see a clear day.

What's Kevin's answer for this.



Kevin wants it alllll......

to be like Sheldon...

If anyone is a fan of the big bang theory like me then they know of a Sheldon Cooper ,who can be termed as one who lives a controlled lives. Everything from his meals to his bowel movements are accordng to a schedule, a controlled life indeed. What I admire about him is his lack of self awareness, he may know how much he values himself but overestimates how much people value him. Brilliant scientist he is but in this world people value kindness, politeness and a general level of sensitivity which he cannot attain or even feign. He is not driven by any need to copulate or show affection to others, his work is what drives him. Most peoples' goals are driven by a need to be accepted by their peers, he does not care for acceptance but he dearly cares for recognition for his exceptional intelligence. His main goal is to get a Nobel prize. I envy his general disregard for other peoples opinions, lack for the need of affection etc. I shall never been able to be like sheldon, probably coz why the actor who plays him is gay. That may be the reason why he plays Sheldon so well.........

Learn psychology.

I wake up in the morning and there's people on the TV who are fighting all the time and nobody knows when it started. I run into the same problem at work, in school , where I work and even the people who are supposedly going to spend the rest of my life with. I have no cure for the pig headed, no forgiveness to the air headed and definitely no redemption for those who ignore wise counsel. Don't get me wrong, I am in no way perfect but I try to be sensitive until a person is scratching at the very edge of my comfort level. I'll leave you with that for now, how does it feel when everyone around you seems to be making illogical decisions.....

to understand his addiction.........

"This is who you are.." says the whispers in my head. Like the irritating wind blowing my curtains the whispers get louder and louder. I wish i could understand why the speak, how they speak to me