Kevin wants to ..........have real hunger

Do you know what real hunger is, not the hunger you see on TV from various wartime African countries, internal need for something to fill you up. The people around you sit and work their asses off just for the next pay cheque but not you, you want to create something. Something that you can leave to your children's children's children.
This hunger is the greatest driving force that humans have, kings have conquered vast lands trying to fill that need. Women have plotted against others just to ensure their places in the annuls of history are assured. I have however  not been able to fully synthesize this feeling for myself. Time after a time i want to start something and then i eventually give up because either my heart wasn’t in it or i feel like my time would be better spent somewhere else. I need this hunger.
As a teenager i read a few books by John Grisham and one overriding theme i received from the young lawyers i read about is HUNGER. Working 18 hours a day  every day so that you can get that corner office was the hunger that i saw in those pages. It was all consuming and nothing could ever stop them from getting there.

That is the kind of hunger i speak off....i want it.

Kevin wants to.......enjoy his youth

Burning the candle at both ends,a term every hardworking Kenyan knows oh so well. The point in your life you realize that you actually do not have enough time in the day and you are barely holding on to your sanity as is.

A friend of mine gave me this scenario the other day. When we are young and have energy we have no money to enjoy life, when we have the money and a little less energy we are spending what energy we have left trying to get more money. The crappy part of it all is that when we have the money and the time we do not have the energy to do what we missed doing when we were young.

I know that the above scenario does not encompass everyone but what I am trying to say is that if you are young enjoy your youth or you will wake up one day and wonder where it all went.

Kevin wants to.... Be happy and not be judged for my choices...

They say that life is hard, I agree and I disagree with them. Life is as hard as any individual would like it to be. People everyday complain of dead end jobs but if you have no commitments why stay.

There are plenty of paths that come before us and if we chose them, we better know the consequences. The people you surround yourself are your own personal choice, you are who you surround yourself with. Starting a family is a personal choice and contrary to popular belief, is not the happily ever after scene that its painted to be. All these and more are choices we make, some made out of anger while others have selfish connotations. Do not blame others for the choices that you have made because making others unhappy shall do nothing but create enemies amongst us.

When you make the choices hat you believe you can live with, would others impact the way you view your choices.

What other people think of you is immaterial unless you put too much thought in it. The thoughts that others propagate of you are their own and portray their own inabilities ,so as much as you may want to fit in, it is not worth losing yourself to be with others.
Be the person who brings joy to others by loving them further and in turn they shall reciprocate. Making another person unhappy to be themselves is just killing them bit by bit.....

Kevin wants to......be an animal

I read a book the other day for people interested in losing weight. It simply stated that we need to follow the simple rules of the animal kingdom. A lion wakes up everyday knowing that in order to survive it will need to run as fast or even faster than its prey. A gazelle knows that if it doesn't run fast enough or be more agile, the cheetahs will get him. Animals generally know that they only eat when they need to and drink when they need to, unless you are a bear planning to sleep for 3 months then you just engorge yourself

We can use these principles in every day of our lives when it comes to our health but one section in particular when it comes to our interpersonal lives.

In the family . As a husband , you know tomorrow you shall have to be wiser and stronger to keep your family happy and comfortable. As a mother, you know you shall have to be more thoughtful of your children's needs to ensure they attain their full potential. As parents, you will most definitely have to be more understanding when your children do wrong but also have the strength and determination to do what needs to be done to endure they are back on the right path.



Tomorrow is another struggle to be best at what you do and to ensure you are not someone else's meal......

See a clear day.......

The sky goes grey everyday and screams from inside my head just keep getting suppressed. It's not a matter of preference for a sunny day just the fact that sunny day for me means a clear and happy mind. For all ye who know the effects of the rain on ones mood surely you understand and see it my way. From ancient times it has always been a good omen to those of us who deem the world as our playground. clear skies have always been good for tracking prey, learning the secrets of the world and best of all warmth. A warm body is generally happier than a cold one, when people feel loved its always described as a warm feeling. When people are scared, it's usually a cold shiver.

All this ranting and raving but the short story is Kevin wants to see a clear day. A day when I don't have to worry about bills, punctured three, punctured wallets, problematic family members etc. how does one get to a clear day. It would be a simple answer if it wasn't so complicated. Everybody wants to be rich, they say a billionaire has no problems. The only reason that I could wish for that is because I know that a billionaire probably has 99 problems but money ain't one.
If money isn't he solution then I believe a clear day could be found by being loved. That could help clear the skies a bit but at the end of he day, you can't eat love and money comes into the picture. Wow, if you wished for love then you may end up realizing that love doesn't pay rent the hard way.

We could go on and on and on with this. Wish for brains and you end up insufferable and long for love, wish for wisdom and you will be tested for the rest of your life and lack peace. It's really not as easy as you think to see a clear day.

What's Kevin's answer for this.



Kevin wants it alllll......

to be like Sheldon...

If anyone is a fan of the big bang theory like me then they know of a Sheldon Cooper ,who can be termed as one who lives a controlled lives. Everything from his meals to his bowel movements are accordng to a schedule, a controlled life indeed. What I admire about him is his lack of self awareness, he may know how much he values himself but overestimates how much people value him. Brilliant scientist he is but in this world people value kindness, politeness and a general level of sensitivity which he cannot attain or even feign. He is not driven by any need to copulate or show affection to others, his work is what drives him. Most peoples' goals are driven by a need to be accepted by their peers, he does not care for acceptance but he dearly cares for recognition for his exceptional intelligence. His main goal is to get a Nobel prize. I envy his general disregard for other peoples opinions, lack for the need of affection etc. I shall never been able to be like sheldon, probably coz why the actor who plays him is gay. That may be the reason why he plays Sheldon so well.........

Learn psychology.

I wake up in the morning and there's people on the TV who are fighting all the time and nobody knows when it started. I run into the same problem at work, in school , where I work and even the people who are supposedly going to spend the rest of my life with. I have no cure for the pig headed, no forgiveness to the air headed and definitely no redemption for those who ignore wise counsel. Don't get me wrong, I am in no way perfect but I try to be sensitive until a person is scratching at the very edge of my comfort level. I'll leave you with that for now, how does it feel when everyone around you seems to be making illogical decisions.....